An old post in my old blog
"I cried today for no reason at all. I saw a picture of a puppy saying, "I will miss you" and I couldn't think of anyone who would miss me. I don't think things are going to go well at all."

I cried reading this.

back

we are similar in how we love but opposites in how we hate.

One day

I will learn to... well I dont know.
I will learn some thing tho, and it will be important

Different?

You know life is not about being different that everyone else. In fact thats taking the easy way out... Its really fucking easy to be different. The hardest thing to do Is to be your self... Have you given up on being yourself ?

my boy friend

is captain America

You may feel alone...

when nobody loves you, but it's much worse when people do.

Every day

gets better because I'm closer to dyeing.

I can see them in your eyes

Dont worry I already know I just pretend I don't... I have always been at least 2 steps ahead of most people because I can make myself look stupid so you forget to cover your tracks... you get a little more conformable wile I inch my way into the truth in your lies and maybe I will trust you.

home

Never tell

Fuck you I will tell anyone I want.
These are my lips and they speak my words now and no one else can change them.

I found it

I found love
I found it
I found it
i found it
i found it
i found it
and it was not even that hard

Stumble

Ever want something so badly you don't want it at all when you get it?
You weep for new meaning... But nothing will change.

do you want to cry

Forever's Not So Long from garrettmurray on Vimeo.

cry bitch cry

i found it

Its all these god dam pictures of people
all there faces all the time... what would anyone care?

I think therefor i am alone in my head.

I think the real beauty in life is death.

I really hope things aren't as complicated as I think they are.



But I have a feeling that things are always more complicated than I would ever know.

Im trying to meet as many people as I can
why
I don't know. Maybe someone interesting will pop up

I want someone

I want to share with someone everything I got. I want to give them so much of myself that they become a part of me and they would share so much of them selves that I would become a part of them. Cant we all be that lucky. Only in death I will ever know anything for sure. Only in death we will truly know love.

they are never going to write a book about your life
stop thinking of the plot line... every time something exciting happens.

your going to die and no one will ever miss you. Ever.
no one will ever remember what the letter stands for in the middle of your name on your grave stone.

Sandwitch

some days I can make a sandwich some days I can draw a sandwich... some days im like, fuck the sandwich I want Doritos but then I don't have any Doritos so I don't eat anything at all and pout. today is one of them Dorito days... what ever tomorrow will be awesome!

FFFF

When I grow up I want to be
Oh wait....

flat coca cola

The coca cola is flat
its a sad thing too
coca cola is not ever as good ever again.

THAT THING

I love

I love love love love love love
I love love love love love love
love love love
My life.

spring

IM

I am not perfect.
I am not perfect.
I am not perfect.
I am not perfect.
I am not perfect.
but
I would like it if someone said that I was

Do what

YOU ARE

week...

YEAH...

Hecq Vs Exillion - Spheres Of Fury from Tim.Chris.Film on Vimeo.

DOOT DOT DOO DEE

ITS SO NICE
BUT IM IN A REALLY ANNOYED MOOD TODAY
DOOT DOOT DOO DEE
ASKED THIS ONE GUY
IF HE WANTED MY INHALER CUZ HIS GIGGLING WAS ANNOYING
DOOT DOOT DOO DEE
DID NOT GET ANY WORK DONE
DOOT DOOT DOO DEE

Have you ever looked out the window
and saw someone walk by

You begin cry and let your mind drift away it for awhile
Just a stranger
You think about How they could be thinking bout the same thing
but you will never know
And there is so many people you will never ever know
They all walk around with little books about there lives
Little books that no one will ever read
Becaouse they are to busy with there books

Beautiful

Life is beautiful... I want to see it all.
The love, the hate, the loneliness,the happiness.
Regardless of whats going on, no matter what I feel like.
I'm living, I am experiencing great things
some people need to know how beautiful life is.

Life can not be forced into something that is dead.

...!

ben.

DA BOOK OF LOVE

it is to written
no read

dr blind

love love love song and movie

I want this

badly lolol
but sadly
I am poor college student

http://www.6pm.com/modern-amusement-international-breaker-french-black

Ally

Are identity
is are only ally

Always

Quote of the day

"Ride on a breeze pocket cutie"

Im not your toy

remix is good

I have bronchitis

Im going to die from it probably

That pic is of me dieing

bagel party (week 1)

We had a dorm meeting thing and it was a bagel party...
I stole A whole thing of bagels
and then My room mate scurrd this shit out of me.
But yeah
Stealing a beg for bagels counts as the first thing

O:

Its hard

Its harder than I thought it would be to leave my comfort zone.


art by michael wandelmaier

Walls

Mental walls keep others away… but they do so by walling your self off from the world. As you build more walls, the part of the world that you can see keeps shrinking. Eventually, if you build enough, you can't see anything but your self… and that's an awfully lonely place to be. I have built wall after wall in my life for things haven't been the easiest for me... I want to start to brake down these walls. Walls are basically a comfort zone... they are like your room when you were little, every thing was yours and you could lock the door and be comfortable. I dont want to be in my comfortable room any more.
My plan to brake down my walls is to do something new and completely out of the ordinary once a week. It could be as simple as walking down the makeup section at Walmart, or as complicated as getting shit faced at some strangers house. As long as im unconformable it will count.

STARTING TODAY

~wish me luck

Holly shit

DUDE FUCK THIS SONG
OMFG
seriously I want to have sex to this song... just cuz
it would be insane.
Oh and
here is like over 9000 of its remixes
http://loituma.toimii.net/
I suggest the bass hunter one

This song has be making my life so much better for the past 3 days or so, and its a remix by minotaur shock. SO GOOD

Home

Im finally back in Pittsburgh... always on they why there and back I see a hawk perched on a tree along the threw way, and there was an add that said HomeSick but sick was scribbled out...
I always like little things like that idk why

oh and here is my fly ass jacket

kidzbop T-shit(idk were it came from probably)
black skinny jeans (free on black Friday)
2 bracelets (one hemp made by stoner brother and other steal 50c claw machine)
Winter ear cover hat thing (stole)
headphones (I bought them for real 90$ or some shit)

lol see how cheep I am in my style... still look fly

This song is so Qt

Short film Thursday

Kay!

Kay so i saw this AMAZING Movie yesterday
Its called
Ink

It was so god dam good I almost cried cuz i was so happy I watched it.
AND Also
Sound track
fantastical

Shit son

I made a blog!

It will not fail
I do not except failure

Things to do
-talk about my little life
-share music and art
-share my art
-get in a fight